left to my own devices, i seek to avoid all self-reprimand and probe at the extremes of a connection i never knew, in the hope that it will solidify another future for me.
i dislike my occupation, relations, abode. i dislike my choices.
so this is what we have arrived at by way of summary (but not conclusion): i am not capable of looking in mirrors and conversing with people purely because i am a bad chooser.
